Happy Valentine’s Day! I’m sending love to everyone! I hope you had a great day today!
To be honest, for the 23 years of my life, I never once celebrate or feel excited about Valentine’s day. For me, it’s just another normal day. I never had a feeling of the rosy emotions or the pink moment from it. Don’t get me wrong, that doesn’t mean I hate Valentine’s Day, in fact, it’s enjoyable to see all the decorations and reading love stories from all over the world.
But since the highlight for February is all about Love, I wanted to write everything that brings Love into my life. All of my gratefulness that loaded me with happiness. I’ve written them last year, but I wanted to write to them again to remind myself how good life actually is.
In my life, I’m thankful to learn about God and for me to face all the bitterness in life, I don’t think I will be strong enough to hold on without God by my side. God always there to offer help with my emotions and mental supports. I know we all have a different perception of God, but for me, praying with a hope of healing has helped me tremendously. When I’m in tears, when I questioned life, and when I’m happy, it’s all God who is there to push me to believe that I’m capable of doing what I thought I can’t. That’s why I always feel amazed by God’s kindness to let me experience life with plenty of goodies.
Life and living are one of the best things I could have ever ask for. To breathe and watch my lovely people’s faces and feel the variety of emotions every day is such a blessing. I think there are times we all take things for granted and ignore all the small happiness with hope for another day to pass, but just being alive is the biggest blessing for everyone. There might be illness, there might be a hardship, there might be hate, but overall it’s only a small part of life. At the end of the day, we all will say goodbye to this world and live separately.
Growing up while having my mom, dad, brother, and sister, I’m so thankful for their supports. For a long time, they are my backbone. If I wasn’t feeling very well, they will hold my hand and with open arms to hug me. They see me cry and pat my back telling me I’ve done a great job. They pull my hand and make me stand again. Each of them taught me life from a different angle, but all of them was a lesson that has improved my life significantly. They are the reason why I’m able to face up and stand even how weak my knees are to stand.
When I first met my boyfriend it filled with funny moments and I never would’ve thought we will end up being together, and this year January marks our one-year together. How fast time flies ey. But he currently working in Japan so we are having a long-distance relationship. However, meeting him since the first time was a blessed encounter. He taught me a lot of things about a relationship and life in general. Probably he doesn’t know this, but sometimes his unplanned words flutter my heart. His small surprises of words cheer me up a lot when I wasn’t having a great day.
I guess it won’t be wrong to at least give credit to myself too. To be thankful to me and recall back how far I’ve gone through in this journey of life. The cycle of giving up and rise again repeated many times. When I think back how many paths I’ve taken, I should give more love to myself instead of being ungrateful all the time. Condemning myself when actually my body and my heart are there to support my physical abilities. Life is not perfect, and I’m no way perfect. That’s why right now I’m practice to always be grateful for everything I had. Because at the end of the day, without my own supports, I can’t wake up another to do things that bring me, love.