This was actually written on 29/01/2020 when I wasn’t having a good day. To be honest, I don’t intend to post it here, but upon reading them today, I never thought it would encourage and motivate me instead. So I decided to put them up here.
Today is another day of feeling kind of blue. My anxiety comes and I wasn’t being my best self. I’m having a hard time to believe in possibilities, also blaming myself for not doing the best I could. There’s a lot of responsibilities that I wish to let go and I hope to be in a place where everything could be at a calm pace, less worry and just spend all my day until dawn on my bed.
At the beginning of this year, I plan to not write any negativity in this space, but things like this are very common to many of us. The thought of giving up, the sadness, worry that seems to unsolve, and every little thing in life that we probably can’t run away from, yet.
That’s why, today, I wanted to motivate myself and instead of feeling down about it, there’s more beauty in every misery too.
Life is not as bad as it seems.
I get it when nothing feels right at the moment, we tend to blame on the other things. The responsibility, regret, people, and environment. None of them is good for you or you might think, well…they are not in my shoes, so how would they know how I feel? But being in this state means selfish. To think that everyone never experiences your problem is actually wrong.
You see, life offers more great resources to feel content, and maybe today is not the day for you, but you can opt to relieve your stress by doing simple things like watching your favorite movie, drama or whatever things to make you feel satisfied with life. Cry if you want to, angry if you want to, but one thing for sure knows to limit yourself. Stop sabotaging your heart more than you already did. Sometimes those small actions can attribute to the worst enemy of yourself, the demon that trying to make you feel more than enough.
Be calm, and being grateful won’t cost any dime.
Probably grateful is one of my used words in this blog. Even, for now, I still learn to be grateful and embrace all of myself. It’s not easy but I know I’m getting there. Though I’m not gonna lie when life wasn’t on our side, complain was far an easier thing to do, isn’t it? And probably at those moments, you thought no one can understand how you feel or you wished for everyone to validate your emotions. But remember, the one who should understand you is You. And to do that, first thing first, be calm down and take a deep breath.
Avoid talking to someone when you feel angry and never let it out to others. Always seek calm beforehand. Because during this phase, we probably a little lack of compassion with words. We might accidentally let out words that will end up with regrets. And before taking out to yourself, try to imagine how worst it could be. If you are still breathing, you can get through it.
Not to mention, our mind controls the overall body. So if your mind carries weak energy, your body will respond to it. Stay calm and be grateful for everything that happened. I’m thankful for Oprah’s talk with Lady Gaga early this year. They discuss mental health and one phrase struck me the most was by Lady Gaga.
God was saying to me, I’m going to show you PAIN, and then you’re gonna help other people who are in pain because you understand it.Lady gaga
While you are having an unhappy day, you will miss out on the hidden message in your life. So even though there’s nothing to be grateful for, still be grateful.
It’s only temporary.
Maybe everything that I said won’t work, but the ugly truth in life, everything is only temporary. So you either think about it on the good or bad side, it’s all up to you. Because at the end of the day, happiness or sadness won’t last forever. We are just human that are bound to say goodbye. That’s why you can choose to collect good memories or cover them up with regrets later on.
It’s hard to accept that nothing will last forever, for me to understand this about life is indeed sad. To see people come and go throughout my life, it’s never easy. I cry and wish to never shed tears again, but as we all know, nothing can escape death. So never take something lightly, today will last for only today.
By the way, tomorrow is a brand new day. If you weren’t feeling good today, take your time to mourn and let it stay with today, instead of bringing it to tomorrow. Things will pass and nothing will last. That goes to your hardship in life too.
As I write this, I’m listening to the song from an indie game titled Child of Light. I’ve been listening to it for many days now, and today it helped motivate me to write while still feel okay with all of the sadness I had. Even though sometimes life seems unfair or didn’t work according to our plan, but the good news is, there’s always that someone who watches us from above. And as a believer of God, I’m happy to know that even how many hurdles I faced, nothing will end up in darkness because that’s what God promised being a child of light.